Pages from Agi’s Journal


“Walking”

I see some rocks in the garden.

They’re jutting up from the ground.

I step on one.

Then take another step.

I’m a kid again playing with stones.

 

Pick one. Throw it. Jump big.

Stop. Next around.

Rock me, Mom, rock.

She stops.

The rock I put on her grave.

She’s dead rock.

 

Go around. Your turn. Jump and stop.

I play hopscotch.

Stone age old age.

Turning into old maid.

Hop and stop.

Rocky place home place

This is good place.

 


 

 

Let’s go for a walk! Get outside! It is beautiful out there. Besides, you’ll feel better if you do. First of all, you need to give permission to yourself to do that. That’s the most difficult part. As for your body, it’s natural to move and it’s in a constant motion anyway but you can do that consciously.

Don’t forget to take a journal with you. In case you want to jot down your thoughts. Or drawing from nature would appeal to you. Anything would do it if you are aware and it’s worth putting down if it crosses your mind. Relax into this knowing.

Carve out twenty minutes of your day and make it as a habit right from the start. Cleave to the routine and do not let this one go. Put it in your calendar if you have one. You meant to do something for yourself since ages.

While out, just walk for a few minutes and take a deep, letting go breath. Then consent to your mind that you agree to your interest be your guide. You really do not have to do anything else. Follow your own nature.  

It’s good if you notice what holds your attention; what amuses you, what makes you feel good. Make notes. Any word would do. Be patient with yourself, and keep the log, even if it does not make sense to you initially.

What’s nice about this is that you’ll have a valuable tool to get to know yourself better in a true and powerful way. It’s useful too; you can go back anytime and think it over. Have fun with this and know that you have given yourself a gift. Now, you have the key to unlock your own potentials.

 


 

 

Agi Fejer is a graduate student at Shepherd University.


“American Transcendentalism: An Online Travel Guide” was produced by students in ENGL 446, American Transcendentalism, and ENGL 447, American Literature and the Prominence of Place: A Travel Practicum. These courses were team-taught in the Department of English at Shepherd College (now Shepherd University), Shepherdstown, West Virginia, in Spring 2002 by Dr. Patricia Dwyer and Dr. Linda Tate. For more information on the course and the web project, visit “About This Site.” © 2003 Linda Tate.